Grrrrrrr

I am angry today...very angry...and very stressed out. I am trying, and so far, I am successful at keeping my cool...sort of. I have little patience and I know I have snapped at Cailey and Ben one too many times. And the guy at Subway this evening got the full brunt of my fury...although he had it coming, the little punk ~ charged me $.50 for two pieces of bacon and charged me extra for a sandwich with only "extra" cheese and NO meat on it...what the %^&$! Okay, like I said, I was just a tad on edge!

The cause of my short fuse: Scott left yesterday for Wisconsin to attend graduate school for two weeks ~ I am angry about that...I know it's not his fault (and it could be worse ~ think of all the soldiers that leave their families for months/years!), but I am still angry...I am left here to attend to everything on my own and it seems to be the worst two weeks possible for him to be gone. Cailey starts school on Wednesday ~ with Scott gone that leaves me to do everything by myself. This morning we had Cailey's teacher conference and school pictures at 8:30am. That means I am left to fill out all the paperwork, purchase, gather, organize, and label all school supplies (do they really need all this stuff?), pay all the fees (school directory, lunch money, science fees, school sweatshirt, etc.), get her school pictures taken ~ which means I have to get her up and into the shower and then do her hair (WWIII started in our house this morning), get breakfast for Ben and Cailey, dress myself (I considered arriving to school still in my pajamas ~ I would look stupid, but I would have still been smiling :o). We met with the new teacher (by myself!...with Ben in tow...oh my!). At least the teacher seems to be really nice and very experienced ~ thank goodness! After last year, we need a good teacher :o)

Starting on Wednesday I will have to fight with Cailey to get up in the morning, get her to the bus, get her to dance on Wednesdays and Thursdays. I haven't even mentioned the normal, every-day routine stuff like bedtime, baths, lunch, dinner, etc. ~ I just can't think of that right now! On top of all the kids' stuff, Scott leaves me a couple of "tasks" ("oh, Honey I need you to do this while I am gone"...GRRRRR...cause I don't have enough to do, apparently). He wants me to send in the rebate crap from the new computer (why am doing this????), take back the paint that Kwal Paints can't seem to get the color correct on ~ needs to be done soon so that our receipt doesn't expire even though we have already taken it back twice. Maybe I'll wait a few days for the paint and let my anger really build...it would give me a good release to yell at those guys!!! Kidding. You know, I have my own projects to take care of ~ call Richmond Homes and make sure they are working on a solution to fixing our attic furnace (long story!), get thank you cards out for Cailey's birthday party, fix the photo printer, call Amy to get the "final" word on Thanksgiving plans before the flights fill up! Of course, starting on Wednesday Cailey will have nightly homework to further the pain.

Also, we had a Girl Scout meeting tonight ~ a special "back-to-school" meeting at the park and a chance for the parents to fill out yet more paperwork. However, that turned out to be a nice time-out for me. The kids could run around at the park and I could have adult conversation ~ I forgot that existed :o) Also, I realized it helped relieve some of my tension.

Just checked voice mail. The kids' dentist office called this morning to inform me that the dentist won't be back from Iran in time to make our original appointment...so can we reschedule for next month!!! Oh, that reminds me...I now need to find a new dentist for the kids!!!

I am hoping to get a good night sleep and apologize to my kids first thing in the morning. Maybe breakfast at IHOP will do the trick! Note to self: I am not cut out to be a single mom...I guess I better start being nicer to my husband :o) HEE HEE HEE (sorry Honey!).