Ben's first day back to school

Ben went back to school (daycare) today. We have him at school two days a week (Tuesdays and Thursdays) and I think he will really enjoy it ~ that's what I am telling myself.

However, it was a difficult morning ~ emotionally. Scott went with us this morning to help me through it which was really sweet ~ although I think he made me more anxious... sorry, Honey, it's true. I hate leaving Ben ~ I love the school, it's a great school, I know he is well cared for, I like his teacher, it's clean, it's fun, it's well organized ~ I just hate leaving him... I want him home with me :o( :o( I miss him terribly ~ I miss Cailey during the day too when she goes to school... but with her I know she is old enough to understand that she has to go to school... plus, she really likes school and the independence it allows her. I just hate leaving Ben at this age. So, today I am sad. I cried a little today. I hate my job so it's not even worth the pain of taking Ben to daycare, but I am hoping for a nice little severance package (if the rumors about my company prove to be true) and the extra money is something we could use right now. I will just have to buck it up for awhile.  

Update: I picked Ben up from daycare and they said he had a good morning but that he was pretty upset after nap when I wasn't there :o(  I peeked through the window to his classroom and saw him sitting at the table eating snack.  He appeared to be sad and wouldn't look at the other kids ~ his head was downward and he was only raising his eyes to peer at the other kids. When I walked in and he saw me he immediately burst into tears and raced into my arms.  He was holding me so tight and saying (through the tears), "Mommy, you no go!" over and over!  I was so sad I thought I was going to cry ~ I wanted to cry. I know he will adjust back into the routine, but it's SOOOO hard to see him that upset because I left him!  I HATE THIS!  But, they said he loved going outside and he took a good two hour nap.  He made a painting and liked telling me all about the painting of the apple tree! So, it was an okay day for Ben. He'll go back on Thursday.